Still angry. If I end up running tomorrow it will be my last entry. If not this is good riddance.

Canceled all plans. Bought a water bottle. Had the worst conversation I've ever had and lost all hope of ever feeling better and my remaining will to live. Did my long run at midnight. Did not complete it. Not even close. The blog is cancelled.

Awful day. Whatever. At least I have the next couple of day off.

Was planning on running after work but only made it a mile and a half before I decided it was too hot. It probably didn't help that I was hungry. I'm starting a nutition plan in a few days. Hopefully that will solve or at least help with my contstant lethargy.

Stayed up all night and went running at like 5am. I started off at a good pace so I decided to forego the scheduled workout and attempt a sub 9 minute mile again. I did it. I tried to do the full workout after work but I was too exhausted to finish. It didn't help that it was 85 degrees outside.

Frustrating weekend. Disappointing. Oh well. I finished my calculator project. I can think of a couple of things to do to make it look better but I'm promising myself to stop working on it for at least a little while and move on to the next project. The course I'm taking wants me to pick between Ruby on Rails and Node.js; I'm leaning toward Ruby. I'll research that. And decide whether to pull an all nighter or take a couple hour nap before my run.

I got a little bit of sleep before my run this morning. I still only made it 2 miles before my knee started hurting and I started walking to prevent injury. I watched Masters of the Universe this afternoon. What a confused movie. I genuinely feel that it could have been good if it had had a better script. Oh well.

Might have been a mistake staying up all night. I got McDonald's again for breakfast. I'm drawing a line in the sand. No more McDonald's until at least September. It's becoming a problem. I didn't really do anything else but sleep until work. After I got off I played video games with Randy and Dalton for about an hour and a half. I'm gonna try to get a little reading done and take a nap before I wake up at 6 for my morning run.

I think I messed up my knee on my long run. I got to the park at sixish and made it 4 miles on the dot before I had to start walking. I maybe should have stopped sooner. I didn't sleep at all last night which didn't help at all. I was supposed to get lunch with Mom but I went to take a nap and missed it. I worked until about six in the morning on Drinkdle and basically finished it.

Got too much breakfast again. I've gotta stop doing that but am not going to make a plan to prevent myself from it because it isn't really important to me. No lie July.

If I were to make a plan it would be to be in bed by midnight every night so that I don't get hungry at 5am when I'm too tired to bother cooking and McDonalds is open to offer cheap that will eventually kill me.

I passed out at maybed 6am and slept until 1. I picked up my book and stopped by Target to pick up ant spray. I got some fly spray, Magic the Gathering cards, and kombucha while I was there. After I got home I ordered a coffee pitcher, mechanical timer, and Magsafe charger from Amazon. Too much spending in crunch time. Oh well.
I finished chapter 5 of Abundance and am going to finish the section of The Odin Project I've been working on for the past few days before attempting in earnest to catch up to where I'm supposed to be at in Infinite Jest (page 260). If I can catch up (and honestly even if I don't), I'm going to try to finish chapter 4 of Deltarune tonight.

I left my book at work. Frustrating. I'll have to get it tomorrow morning. My run did not feel great tonight. I think it had more to do with it still being 80 degrees at almost 11:30 at night, but I'm sure my current level of fitness isn't helping. I made it about 2 miles before my legs felt like they were going to give out. I bought Deltarune and played that for an hour instead of reading Infinite Jest. I took the day off tomorrow to catch up but I'm kind of doubtful that I actually will. I cooked some chicken that was going to expire for lunch today but I think I underdid it. I ended up microwaving it, yuck. I think from now on I'm going to cook it at 350 degrees for 30 minutes instead of 450 for about 20. I temped it but was getting vastly different readings. I assumed that it was my thermometer but maybe my oven has hotspots or maybe putting it in for longer will fix it. We'll see next time I attempt this I guess.

Had a disgusting amount of McDonalds in the AM and then slept as late as possible until work. Rushed home to do laundry and get my run in. I had to pause a couple of times but I made it through the first round of tempo changes before having to stop. I'm gonna get some javascript exercises done and then try to outpace my reading quota.

Not a great day for me. I bought a new electric kettle and made progress on Abundance. I wish I'dve enjoyed taking a rest day but I just feel kind of empty. Tomorrow's another day.

Stayed up super late last night playing Grounded. Didn't run in the morning so I did at around midnight after work. I'm still mega-fatigued and walked the vast majority of it. I may need to take a full rest week. I don't know. On the other hand I did it after working for like six hours coming off of not enough sleep. I guess we'll wait to see how my run on Sunday plays out.

Brewed coffee with my new equipment for the first time. I definitely need a new kettle. Possibly a scale too. I had lunch with Mom and read Infinite Jest for a couple of hours. The highlight so far is James Orin Incandenze Sr's drunken rant to a young Himself. I'm not going to work out today. I might do a stretching session later, but I'm taking this day as a strict recovery day after yesterday's failure. I'm going to grind javascript until I get to my next project and then read until I finish at least a chapter of Abundance. Before lunch I stopped by Barnes and Noble and picked up a couple of Criterion Collection Blu-ray. Maybe if I can get all of my tasks done I'll watch 12 Angry Men.

Internet was down all day; it's actually still down as I'm writing this. My run didn't go like I wanted it to. I was worried about the increased pace on mile 2 and started walking to preserve energy. The pace didn't end up being the problem as much as my legs being completely shot from yesterday's speed work. Oh well, we'll get it next week I suppose. My mood has been awful lately; I think I'm severely depressed. I don't want to do anything and all of my accomplishments feel meaningless. I've been letting various pieces of upkeep go undone and tell myself I'm just putting it off until tomorrow even though I know if I didn't do it for the last five days I'm certainly not going to do it on the sixth. Maybe it's my diet. I've been eating a lot of sugar lately.

Tried to run the sub 9 on my off day. My pace was too quick to maintain. I got my fastest half mile ever though. I read some more of Abundance at work tonight. After I got home I tried reading Infinite Jest but the part I'm at is completely insufferable. I will suffer through it, later though. For now I'm going to grind through some javascript lessons.

Went out at 5am to run but my legs hurt so badly that after a lap I went home. Got a full 8 hours and made some pasta. I did a small amount of reading, I'm still not enjoying Abundance. At about 7 I went out for attempt 2 of my run and got through it. I changed clothes and stopped by the store for groceries which I'll catalog after this. I got and ate an entire bag of chocolate chip cookies. Bad idea; what happened to eating clean? Anyway I'm going to try and read some Infinite Jest before going to bed. I'm still at a massive defecit.

I thought for sure I hit a sub 9 today during warmup- nope, not even close. 10:58. On the bright side I'm absolutely capable of running a sub 8, the problem is maintaining it for any amount of time. I'll get a shot at it again in about six hours. Need to make sure that I wait to start my attempt after I've already run 2 miles though. Come to think of it, on the drive home I was realizing that I should be strictly adhering to my pace targets and not exceeding them because I need to learn what the pace feels like intuitively to have any chance at running it in a 10k. Maybe I'll just take it easy. Work tonight was rough. I would have liked to take home more money, especially because I took the day off tomorrow. Oh well. I was going to make a payment on my car debt and saw that it had been marked as paid. Curious. I'm going to investigate more thouroughly tomorrow (they weren't open today so I couldn't talk to anyone).
My tire was low on air so I stopped by the gas station to pump air but it wouldn't go above 26psi. I'm always freaked out that my tire will explode and take my hand with it so I decided to assume some sensor is wrong and get it looked at later. I got Jack in the Box for dinner, a decision that is bad for my health, wallet, and mouth. I don't even know why I did it. Maybe tomorrow is the day I commit to eating clean.

Finally got a full 8 hours. Woke up right as it was time to get to work. I'm gonna try to rush through all my tasks while the laundry is going and get at least a couple of hours of sleep before speed work tomorrow morning. Work was fine by the way. Got out a little later than would have been ideal but money-wise it is not yet time to freak out about being behind.

I don't know if it's lack of sleep or working out last night but my run this morning just felt bad. I finished and went right to sleep until work. I'm gonna do my reading and probably a load of laundry. Work tonight was okay, I just need a really busy night to put me ahead. I also need to pay Mom back after I get my bills for the month sorted out.

Didn't do much today. I watched The Sheep Detectives last night stretching into this morning and went to the grocery store at like 5am to pick up mostly sweets. I did pick up stuff to make guacamole which I'll do in about an hour or so when I get hungry enough to eat dinner. I should probably throw the leftover chicken out after, even this is pushing it. Just before sitting down to write I decided to do a lower body workout. Yikes. I want to get my knee looked at by a physio. It feels very weak and it doesn't seem to be getting stronger. There's also the pain in my groin from surgery that doesn't seem to be getting better.
I walked to the library to turn in my book and unless it miraculously cools down to at least 78 I won't be going for a run thank you very much.

I finished the Etch-a-sketch project. Or at least came to a point where I feel comfortable ceasing work on it for a while. There are still features to implement and the page could be more stylish- or stylish at all I suppose. But the core functionality of the script is done. I wasn't able to run all of my workout today. I was trying for a sun 9 minute mile but my pace was off. I did the first kilometer at I think 8'56" but slowed down by the end to 9'23", two seconds away from a PB. Humiliating. I think I'll cheat on my rest day and take another attempt at it. I might look at some lower body workouts tonight to find a good one. I suppose I need to figure out what to register it as on my Garmin. I need to really buckle down and read a ton of Infinite Jest tonight. I'm catching up, slowly but surely.

Finally got a good night's sleep. Paid some bills and considered seeing a Supergirl before deciding against seeing it alone. I finished Strange Buildings, it was fine. I keep hoping Uketsu will top Strange Pictures, but I think it's in vain. I want to run today but I need rest. It's for the best as tomorrow's my long run. Infinite Jest is good. I'm at the part where it's listing James O Incandenza's filmography and decided to take a break to change my router's name to reference the book. Year of the ASUS RT-AX55 Wifi Router here I come.

My body is so fatigued from burning the candle at both ends. I wasn't able to finish my run today; I got maybe a mile and a half before calling it. My watch died again so I went to the store and picked up a Garmin Forerunner 165. I'm excited to use it in a couple of days for my long run. I went into work early to finish some paperwork and got off late so I didn't really get a chance to catch up on all the reading I wanted. I am almost finished with Strange Buildings, I'll probably finish it tomorrow. I'm off to bed now- by the way, I still need to finish the Etch-a-sketch project. Maybe on Wednesday I'll have time.

Hit the track early in the morning to do some speed work. I was huffing and puffing by the end but I made it. Work was really slow tonight but I got lucky with a couple of tables. My plan is to finish the Etch-a-sketch script tonight. I'll polish it on my days off, but I want to get the logic locked in. After that I'll try and get back on track with Infinite Jest.

Woke up at 9 to do laundry and promptly fell back asleep. Business was slow, but I did okay. I'm going to work a bit more on the programming project I was doing last night and then maybe read before bed.

Stayed up all night and watched The End of the Tour with Jason Segal and Jesse Eisenberg. I thought it was okay. At around 5am I went to the park and started my run. When got maybe half a mile before I checked my watch and realized it had quit on me. It made me so mad; I wanted to chuck it into the pond. I refrained from doing anything rash, but I'm buying a new watch as soon as possible. After that I went to sleep until it was time to work. I didn't get very much done today as a result. I got my new ranking at work, it's pretty good. I'm gonna take a stab at this programming problem that eluded me last night and then read a bit before bed.

Slept in until 2pm. Don't know what I was thinking staying up as late as I did last night. I haven't really done anything yet. I'm about to start working on reworking the Rock Paper Scissors project I did to add a GUI to it. I read some of Infinite Jest, but not enough to really make a dent in the defecit I'm running right now. I'm going to wait to do my strengh training until a few hours after dinner. Oh, I ended up playing Magic last night and won two games. It was fun but every time I play I get a dozen ideas for new decks of cards I can buy for my current decks and I shouldn't be spending money on card games right now.

Woke up at 6am and hit the park at around 6:30. The plan was to run 2 miles at a conversational pace, 1 mile at 11 minutes per mile, and another 2 at conversational. What actually happened was I ran the mile in about 10:15 then made it less than a quarter of a mile before getting tuckered out and pausing workout to rest on a bench.
I wish I could tell you that I finished strong, but after getting up I couldn't bring myself to jog anymore, so I walked the last 2 miles.
I got home and worked on some javascript lessons before reading a chapter of Strange Houses. I still need to read another chapter and around 20 pages of Infinite Jest by the end of the day. For lunch I made Spaghetti with homemade marinara and ground turkey. I cribbed Internet Shaquille's notes for the marinara. It turned out well. I didn't have crushed tomatoes like I thought, so the sauce was made with regular tomato sauce, but the food could always be better.
Tonight I'm playing Magic with one of Randy's friends. I need to remember to get a picture for my photojournal. That's it for today; I have to read.